Habituate : to get used to something or to make someone or something used to something. This is a two part entry for the blog. This is something I have thought about writing for a long time. Motherhood is a special gift. When I was pregnant with Julia, I read the baby books on what to expect. I had Pre-eclampsia and was in hospital a couple of times. The joy I had, that one day I would get to meet her, filled me with happiness. I soon found out that life is a journey without a map. The Birth I was 21 when I had Julia, I had a lovely flat in Murrayfield, a job that I loved and I was grateful. When my waters broke at night, I was driven to St.John's hospital in Livingston. I was nervous but I had my partner with me. They gave me a pill to stop the labour and sent me to a ward. I was woken up the next morning and taken to a room downstairs. My partner arrived and a woman came in to burst my waters, I told her repeatedly they already burst. I began to worry as it made no sense an